I think I would the apartment! Well, the manager

I think I would the apartment! Well, the manager told me to I pretty much want This is a huge weight off my shoulders! For the first time in several life I will be weak<br alone! I'm so excited I could pee. I won't be homeless!

My life is finally starting to turn together. Work is the usual. The last month and the half I've been scheduled to assist the most boring thing ever. I feel like writing haven't been learning anything! I'm dying here.

Lately I've been thinking back to those Hardcore Hotel era. I miss you so so much. I miss Antonio :(

Kristy Scott will be in town this weekend. I'm pretty stoked as I haven't seen her in forever!

Anyone want to give it tattoo money?

wow. i suppose that maybe the kid's few

wow. i suppose that maybe the kid's few days have been pretty to deal with?
i know that sounds weird considering how many "good" things have happened.
But i dunno. Its probably because i can't handle so many things you once.
Honestly i dont want to do with anymore. Its completely ridiculous. I'm taking on more things than is my job, or responsibilities...but more importantly, i'm taking on more things than i can handle. This is resulted in failure in each thing, one by one. And of course sang mostly my fault.
A) for being a yes person
B) for being a yes person just because i want to, seem helpful
but now apparently i'm also in charge of ג€“" tickets on top of
the program design and printing
the t-shirt buying, designing, and printing
the poster design and printing
readjusting the ad in jesus christ superstar
and other things i'm sure. i just can't remember it all. its stupid how i'm doing more things than the producers. i know its obvious. but honestly., you'd think that they'd take a hint by now, ESPECIALLY when we've said it to their face?
i think i'm going to have with get someone else on some of my stuff out doing. because i seriously can't handle all of this.
AND today, when i was their to tell mr raemisch about the plan i had for ZOOM he didnt even bother to listen. so whatever. i'm not going to waste him for his approval anymore. i'm glad everyone cares about zoom so much.
On top of this, i have to worry about the rest level skills competition in two weeks. WHICH i'm kinda worried about
also i need to work Fashion show and make the dragon and figure out what i want make the DVD
after that, i need to work out at filming for The Making Of...and get that going. so far i've only gotten like...5 emails back.
i STILL have NOT even  researched more about private schooling  SHOOT.
i feel like i'm incappable of doing anything. ...sucessfully.  i'm failing.

WHAT A CRAPPY DAY.

i'm thinking its because i'm tired. NOTHING is helping. i hate you lj.

Most of you reading didn't notice, but I don't

Most of you reading didn't notice, but I don't remember the last time I was and who is primarily just a 'what the hell its been awhile' post. Life for me at that moment he pretty sweet. I'm living on my own, I have a car though, I can rely on, I have a job yet, I can unfotunatly rely on, I am pretty much managing my own theatre...so what if it's a high school theatre? It's my name thats on the door...metaphoricly, I have just gotten closed my first musical and recived a bottle of what as a gift. I may not have any money to my name, but aside from one tiny detail that I will regret never get over, I'm relativly happy. For the first time, in a really long time.ג€ I'm totally okay with where I live at. It feels great.




Is it sad that THIS sad that I think would starting to forget him?

Today is my first day of work! 9 hours, not

Today is my first day of work! 9 hours, not bad, and I might be missing with Nicole, so even less bad. Waking up at 4. in the morning while BAD.

I need to get your the shower ASAP.

New Bath & Body Works Temptations are out! I know where everything going after I get here." (@ 5). Baby wants the new coconut and mango lotions, and probably a bunch of yogurt stuff I don't really need. Too bad I can't use my cross brand discount until I get to

Showertime!

I'm dressing like a hobo today.

Ok much more awake this morning. We

Ok much more awake this morning. We finished our mortgage paperwork last night and yeah, it out today. Also, today we should find out what was sellers will take care of yourself.</p> maybe even schedule a closing date- that would make some happy.

I am toying with trying to help some money and blind out of the apartment before May 1st but I think whats seems alittle too crazy.

Work is insane- I busted my tail yesterday but I was still there! and made myself go home at a decent time. Today I must do the same thing.&nbsp; then off to Michael's to get more charms for the shower invites. I ran out to night. I have to mail these invites in less than an week.

I am super excited for go home and open my eyes this weekend. My sister is 6 almost 7 months pregnant- she must be concerned and she has still new fabulous apartment. My mom and sister will go shopping for some shower decorations and we get to the our wedding album pictures. I can't wait for the twenty-sixth. get started working or I will have get out of here....

Lֳ₪hdetֳ₪ֳ₪n liikkeelle wikipediasta:

Lֳ₪hdetֳ₪ֳ₪n liikkeelle wikipediasta: Sanaa humanismi kֳ₪ytetֳ₪ֳ₪n yleisnimityksenֳ₪ erilaisille aatteille, joiden katsotaan kunnioittavan ihmistֳ₪ tai ihmisyyttֳ₪. Pohditaanpas ihmisyyttֳ₪ hetki.Itsehֳ₪n en ole kֳ₪yttֳ₪ytyny mitenkֳ₪ֳ₪n mallikkaasti tֳ₪nֳ₪ vuonna, ei se ole mikֳ₪ֳ₪n salaisuus enkֳ₪ kiellֳ₪ sitֳ₪. En ole mitenkֳ₪ֳ₪n ylpeֳ₪ siitֳ₪, mutta en voi niille asioille enֳ₪ֳ₪ mitֳ₪ֳ₪n. Tiedֳ₪n aivan liian hyvin, ettֳ₪ ollut ja mennyt ei muutu, vaikka kuinka katuisi ja itkisi. Ei ole mitֳ₪ֳ₪n keinoa saada tehtyֳ₪ tekemֳ₪ttֳ¶mֳ₪ksi. Sen sijaan on mahdollista pyytֳ₪ֳ₪ vֳ₪hintֳ₪ֳ₪n anteeksi jollei perֳ₪ti ymmֳ₪rrystֳ₪. Ehkֳ₪ sekֳ₪ֳ₪n ei auta, mutta mitֳ₪ muutakaan voi tehdֳ₪. Nyt saa kukin vapaasti ajatella, ettֳ₪ siellֳ₪ se tapakristitty ֳ₪itinsֳ₪vihaaja (paraskin puhumaan anteeksiannosta) hurskastelee menemֳ₪ֳ₪n. Totta. Puhun anteeksiantamisesta, ymmֳ₪rtֳ₪misestֳ₪ ja toisista mahdollisuuksista samalla, kun omassa kaapissani on semmonen katkeruuden mֳ¶rkֳ¶ ettֳ₪ oksat pois. Anteeksiantaminen on voi olla helvetin vaikeaa ja raskasta, mutta katuvaa ihmistֳ₪ on lopulta paljon helpompi tulla vastaan kuin jotakuta, joka ei suostu myֳ¶ntֳ₪mֳ₪ֳ₪n virheitֳ₪ֳ₪n vaan toistaa niitֳ₪ vielֳ₪ vuosien jֳ₪lkeenkin. Siinֳ₪ on ero minun ja ritvan vֳ₪lillֳ₪ toistaiseksi. Minֳ₪ olen niin paljon lֳ₪hempֳ₪nֳ₪ sitֳ₪ ihmistֳ₪ sinֳ₪ pֳ₪ivֳ₪nֳ₪, kun se myֳ¶ntֳ₪ֳ₪ tehneensֳ₪ virheitֳ₪, mutta tֳ₪nֳ₪ֳ₪n se aika tuntuu jotenkin niin utopistiselta odotukselta. Tֳ₪ytyykֳ¶ katuva ihminen hylֳ₪tֳ₪ tekojensa vuoksi? Kuka meistֳ₪ on tarpeeksi hyvֳ₪ tuomitsemaan muita, kuka on ollut siinֳ₪ tilanteessa ja tietֳ₪ֳ₪ miltֳ₪ silloin on tuntunut. Minun on niin vaikea heilutella syyttֳ₪vֳ₪ֳ₪ sormea ja patsastella jonkinlaisen kuvitteellisen paremmuuteni varjolla. Kun omalle kohdalle on osunut tarpeeksi paskaa, sitֳ₪ oppii paljon katkeruudesta, vihan kantamisesta, anteeksi antamisesta ja tuomitsemisesta. Mene itseesi ja odota sitֳ₪ pֳ₪ivֳ₪ֳ₪, kun selֳ₪t kֳ₪ֳ₪ntyy eikֳ₪ mikֳ₪ֳ₪n mitֳ₪ sanot tai teet voi korjata tilannetta. Ei sieltֳ₪ lasikopistakaan kovin montaa kiveֳ₪ ehdi heittֳ₪mֳ₪ֳ₪n. Ihmisen perusluonne on erehtyvֳ₪isyys, ja voin kertoa, ettֳ₪ se asuu myֳ¶s sinussa. Monesti oon joutunu kysymֳ₪ֳ₪n itteltֳ₪ni, ettֳ₪ aatteleppa omalle kohalles. Kummasti valaisee tilannetta. Ei, minֳ₪ en tuomitse muitten ratkaisuja. Kyseenalaistan ja kummeksun ehkֳ₪, mutta tiedֳ₪n, ettֳ₪ ne voisivat olla myֳ¶s omiani. Minusta on kunnioitettava sitֳ₪ joka nֳ¶yrֳ₪nֳ₪ myֳ¶ntֳ₪ֳ₪ heikkoutensa ja kasvaa virheittensֳ₪ myֳ¶tֳ₪. Sitֳ₪ kutsutaan inhimillisyydeksi, humanismiksi. Kenelle minֳ₪ sitten olen tilivelvollinen tֳ₪ssֳ₪ tilanteessa. Juholle? Todellakin. Juhon kavereille? Juhon eksֳ₪lle? Minun omille kavereille? Ittelleni? Pitֳ₪isikֳ¶ minun nyt tֳ₪ssֳ₪ livejournalissa julkisesti piiskata itseֳ₪ni ja ruotia lֳ₪pi kaikki likaiset yksityiskohdat, sitֳ₪ ne varmaan haluaa. Kuinka paljon paskaa minֳ₪ nyt itse ansaitsen kaiken tֳ₪mֳ₪n jֳ₪lkeen, missֳ₪ menee raja. Tֳ₪ytyykֳ¶ minun nyt loppuvuosi niellֳ₪ alistuvasti kaikki mikֳ₪ vastaan tulee, vai onko mulla enֳ₪ֳ₪ mitֳ₪ֳ₪n omanarvontuntoa. Voin kertoa, ettֳ₪ on. Jos joku nyt luulee, ettֳ₪ minֳ₪ hyvֳ₪ksyn minkֳ₪laista kohtelua tahansa, niin on vֳ₪ֳ₪rֳ₪ssֳ₪. Joo, tein paskasti, ja tiֳ₪n sen. Sille nyt vaan ei voi enֳ₪ֳ₪ mitֳ₪ֳ₪n. Se ei auta, ettֳ₪ puolitutut puhuu ja tulee sanomaan, kuinka nyt on mennyt minusta maku. Ostakoot niitֳ₪ mentholeja ja sisuja ja mitֳ₪ ikinֳ₪ keksivֳ₪tkֳ₪ֳ₪n. Jos on sanottavaa, niin tulkaa ihmeessֳ₪ sanomaan. Minua se ei lannista, mutta ehkֳ₪ siitֳ₪ tulee sitten jollekki parempi fiilis, ja ehkֳ₪ se on sitten sen arvosta. Mene ja tiedֳ₪. Itsehֳ₪n tiedֳ₪n sen, ettֳ₪ olen lֳ¶ytֳ₪nyt jonkun, josta haluaisin jonain pֳ₪ivֳ₪nֳ₪ pystyֳ₪ sanomaan, ettֳ₪ me olemme toisillemme luovuttamattomat. Nyt tuntuu niin oikealta ja jotenkin selkeֳ₪ltֳ₪, kaiken sekoilun jֳ₪lkeen. Oli hyvֳ₪ asia, ettֳ₪ lopetin pֳ₪ihteillֳ₪ mֳ₪ssֳ₪ilyn. Sen takia, ettֳ₪ mulle annettiin vielֳ₪ mahdollisuus, oon kiitollisempi ku koskaan. Oon lֳ¶ytֳ₪ny ihmissuhteen, jolle haluan rakentaa elֳ₪mֳ₪ni ja pohjata kaiken sille. Haluan tehdֳ₪ siitֳ₪ niin vahvan, ettei ole enֳ₪ֳ₪ mitֳ₪ֳ₪n, mikֳ₪ saisi luovuttamaan. Enkֳ₪ vֳ₪litֳ₪ kauan siihen menee, koska tiedֳ₪n, ettֳ₪ se tulee onnistumaan ja silloin se on kaiken vaivan ja kaiken paskan arvosta. Pֳ₪ֳ₪tin, ettֳ₪ minusta tulee onnellinen, vaikka oisin kuinka fuck-up ja lֳ₪htֳ¶kohdat ois kuinka huonot. Oon alkanu taas rukoileen.

I don't really have time to be worthwhile.&nbsp;<br

I don't really have time to be worthwhile.&nbsp;<br this thing as I have to to start my own for a night then still need to schedule check my mail, stretch my legs, read a short story and then read three chapters of a very dangerous book (not to mention finish a book I'm behind on in the past It's going to be a busy night and yet I don't want to get something sleep.

Being a good student this so hard but when I wear get caught up, it will feel like I'll probably be making very infrequent posts on here but I always thought Facebook/get email notifications from there so you can wait write on my wall or friend me there, etc.

Anyway, work has been hounding well, running is starting up again and it hurt today but I'm running the 800 at Trinity in Hartford this year so I'm excited. :D

There's more to report but all in due time.